Another reason I love the Christmas season so much is that my Birthday just happens to coincide with it and this year I have one of those Birthday’s ending in ‘0’ approaching. That’s right, 7 days before Santa arrives I will turn 40! ARGHH!!!!
Except, not ARGHH!!
I am surprisingly, and quite unexpectedly, calm and considered in my approach to turning 40. This will come as quite a shock to all my friends and family who have watched me melt in disbelief at turning another year older on each of my previous Birthday’s. There is an episode of “Friends” – The One Where They All Turn 30 – where the character Joey in particular has a difficult time in facing the ageing process and Rachel bemoans the fact that she hasn’t done anything she had planned to do by the time she turned 30. I was only 27 when this episode originally aired but 3 years later my best friend used quotes from the episode to create a Birthday photo wall for me to reflect just how horrified I was that I was actually turning 30. I mean 3 – 0 – that’s OLD!!! This was not a feeling that came upon me suddenly, from a young age I have feared getting older – I even distinctly remember feeling “old” when I turned 18!!
So with 40 approaching I fully expected the fear to rain down upon me.
And I’ve been waiting for it.
But it hasn’t shown up! And instead I just feel so grateful for being able to turn another year older. Another year that I have spent with my beautiful partner and Sweet Pea. Another year I have laughed and cried with my dearest friends and family. Another year I have been (basically) happy and healthy. Another year when I haven’t always known what the hell I was doing but I’ve had a good time trying to figure it all out. Another year.
So bring it on 40 – I’m ready and waiting!